The One That Got Away

Maybe in another life…

Everyone has their so-called TOTGA: the one that got away. Someone whom you thought would spend the rest of his life with you. Someone you planned the future with. Someone you thought would be your other half.

Who would ever forget the time when you get to watch the sun rise and set with him? Those morning talks and late afternoon walks, the arguments on who would cook and wash the dishes, those lazy rainy days when you only sit there on the couch and sip on your coffee as you talk about your future plans, the movie nights and one of you has to order food from your favorite pizza place, the lessons you've read together, the songs you sang in the car as he plays his favorite song, the vet appointments you had to make, the petty fights that won’t last overnight, those deep conversations as he walks you home, those night drives as you drop by your favorite restaurant, the times when you can show him your craziest side, the places you've been together, the comfort of a friend, the protection of a brother, the love of a man and most especially, the wedding you thought would soon happen.

You might have known him from head to toe -- the size of his feet, the colors of his eyes, the strands of his hair, the marks on his faces, the scars on his chest, the feel of his palm, his favorite shirt, his taste of music, his type of coffee, his favorite drink, food, color, his scent, his frustrations, the voice in his silence, the love in his anger, the care as he ignores you, his burning desires in life, the dreams he wanted as a child, the traumas he's been through as he grows, the plans he has for the future, and the life he is yet to nurture.

However, as things come into place, it had been so perfectly planned but you’d come to realize he isn’t the one. You may think that he is the right person but just on the wrong time and place. You would be left thinking maybe you would make it work some other time but that is uncertain. You do not know when it would come or if it will ever come.

Everything might have been so perfect but if he is not meant for you, it will never really work. On another note, it might have worked if you both really wanted it to work.

And now, you were left with a lot of questions in mind - - WHAT Ifs and IF ONLYs. What if I haven’t done that? What if I was more patient? What if I tried to work it out?

Remember, it takes two to be in a relationship but it only takes one of them to break it. Stop the blame. WHAT IF you made it work but he isn’t happy in it? Sometimes, letting go is the only way to show your love to someone. It sounds selfless but selfish at the same time.  Selfless in a way that you only think of him but selfish in a way that you did it for yourself.

Just hope…

That maybe in another life, you would be his girl.